Before you start to judge me ~~ just remember: there’s a baby picture of YOU laying around somewhere that’s equally precious!
Most of my life I have wondered, “why me?”
Why did I have to grow up under these ‘special circumstances?’
Why did I get the ‘short genes?’
Why do I have these limitations?
One day, I came across the story of Queen Esther. And then God showed me a different perspective of my life. He changed my lens so that I could see things His Way.
You see, Esther lost both of her parents at an early age. She was orphaned as a child. But the love of a distant relative, her father’s cousin, prompted him to step forward and take on the responsibility of raising Esther. While we don’t know if her uncle (that’s the relationship the Bible gives it during that era), Mordecai, was married or if he had any children of his own, we do know that he took a step of obedient FAITH to fulfill a calling he believed to have come from God.
Mordecai raised Esther as best as he could; I’m sure he made a few mistakes along the way. But he managed to train up Esther to embrace his faith and belief in the One True God so that she made it her own. She learned all the customs and traditions of her people the Jews.
But part of me can’t help but think that at some point Esther may have had thoughts like, “Why did God have to take both of my parents away from me so soon?” In essence: “why me?”
And as we find in the Book of Esther, she becomes Queen in a Persian country by the “selection” of King Xerxes. Again, “why me?” may have echoed through her mind.
Then as the story tells us that the fate of the Jewish people are in the hands of Queen Esther. She has to make a hard decision. (You can read all the details in the Book of Esther.). The deciding moment of her lifetime ~~ the main reason she has been immortalized. And I can be certain that “why me” echoed through the chambers of her fast beating heart.
Who knows? Maybe you were made queen for such a time as this. Esther 4:14 The Message.
I embrace my Sister, Esther ~~ her obedient FAITH took her places and taught her that at all cost, rely upon God first ~~ and He will bless you. God did not explain ‘why’ her circumstances were as they were. But Esther continued to walk forward.
For such a time as this ~~ maybe all those painful days of yesteryear were available to me and you for character building. Maybe God knew that we would wrestle to hang on to the very threads of His Garment ~~ but that tested us to the point of strengthening our grip. Maybe the pain in feeling abandoned and neglected were permitted so that you and I could learn to embrace tightly around the One Who said we’re worth dying for.
For such a time as this ~~ could it be that your present struggle(s) have been ushered in to allow you to develop a greater dependence upon the One Who’s calling you out ~~ ‘come take this step with me.’
Sweet Girlfrind of mine ~~ I encourage you today ~~ examine where God has brought you and the talents and gifts with which He has given you ~~ for maybe ~~ just maybe ~~ you have been brought here for such a time as this.
“When someone has been given much, much will be required in return. And when someone has been entrusted with much, even more will be required.” Luke 12:48b. NLT
Why me? Maybe because you have been blessed with so much that can be used and shared and given away ~~ talents and gifts and blessings. It is my prayer that you will not ask why me, but rather say use me.
The photo above was taken of me at the age of 4. I was the designated flower girl for a wedding. At the very last second, the ring bearer bailed out. My grandfather placed the pillow in my hands and said “go.”
Are you being told to go?
May you have a magnificent day, Girlfriend!