“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.” Ephesians 2:10 NLT
I didn’t feel like a masterpiece when I left my home and marriage in April 2020. I felt broken — in every way imaginable. I had been praying for over twelve years for my abusive marriage to be repaired, renewed and healed. Hoping and waiting.
There was a wonderful one-year period of time where my husband chose to take on his role as spiritual leader and we had a church home and community. We prayed together and studied The Word together – we were happy! But almost as quickly as that wonderful year started and bloomed, it went away and the abuse resumed.
I prayed again for healing and restoration and I waited. I also began to ask GOD whether I should stay in my abusive marriage or leave – I continually heard, “Stay.”
Throughout those long years of praying and waiting, I longed for rescue and became discouraged, depressed, angry, and bitter – but I continued to pray. My family was also praying with me, but as the years passed, they began to beg me to leave. At times they would offer solutions, but I was too proud to accept their help and I had told myself long ago that I would never go through a third divorce. It made me feel even more like a failure. For twelve years, I tolerated the verbal abuse and accepted the ugly names hurled at me as truth.
About a year ago as I was praying, something changed. One morning I heard GOD whisper, “You’ll be divorced at sixty. I will rescue you. Trust Me.” This scared me. Was I imagining things? Hearing what I wanted to hear? Was that You, GOD? I didn’t actively do anything about this – BUT – I thought about it – A LOT! I had nowhere to go. I didn’t have a job. I had no money. So, how was I supposed to escape my toxic life?
In early 2020, circumstances began to fall into place as GOD started to reveal His plan. I was reunited with an old friend who had learned of my situation and wanted to help me. This dear friend offered to pay for my divorce and moving expenses – no questions asked. At the same time, my daughter and son-in-love offered to let me move into their home until I could regain my independence. God was opening doors and I needed to trust Him and start walking!
Once I moved, it was time to start healing. I dove head first into God’s Word, devotionals and prayer – I couldn’t get enough! The more I read and studied, the more I craved. GOD had begun an amazing healing in me – I’ve felt His loving, healing arms taking away my brokenness with each passing day. He has blessed me beyond measure! GOD has so healed my heart that He has revived my compassion for others and restored my servants’ heart – He has literally set my soul on fire!
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been searching for my true identity. GOD led me to a Bible study where I learned about His Word and myself – it deepened my heart-to-heart connection with GOD, strengthened my prayer life and I learned my real and true identity.
Now I know that I am created in His image, Chosen by Him, I am Worthy, I am forgiven, I am loved, and I am enough! All of the lies I had come to believe over the past twelve years are gone. I am God’s daughter and no one can take that away from me.
“For I know what I have planned for you,” says the Lord, “I have plans to prosper you, not to harm you. I have plans to give you a future filled with hope.” Jeremiah 29:11 NET
Today, I’m thankful for all of the trials storms – GOD used them to mold me into who I am today.
Kathy Glor is a single mother of three children – daughter, 39; twin son & daughter, 35. She is a proud grandmother to to 10 with one more coming in April! Kathy is a “retired” Nurse Practitioner and presently moving into her new career in the medical billing & coding field. Kathy is a passionate Jesus girl and loves participating in Proverbs 31 Ministries Online Bible Study. She is currently seeking volunteer work through her new church community.
We thank you, Kathy, for sharing your heart and your Testimony of GOD’s love and grace in your life. Your contribution to Testimony Thursday this month is well appreciated!
You are loved to Heaven and Back, Kathy ~~
LindaRJohnson, TitusTwo Visionary