“Trusting the Trustworthy One”

Every time that I am upset,
    you know about it.
Put all my tears in your bottle!
    Yes, write down every tear in your book. Psalm 56:8 EASY

Have you ever experienced a moment (or two or three or four) when you just wondered if anyone cared? If I may speak from the heart here … we usually have these feelings when things are just awful and we are in a heap of disappointment, discouragement and depression. And quite frankly, we’re very isolated in that dark place.

It’s easy to allow our raw emotions to get the best of us when life is going sideways. When all attempts to articulate the hurt and pain fall short of making sense to the outside world, it’s hard to find someone with a listening soul who’s willing to sit with us and give us the grace to fall apart, have that ugly-face cry and unpack the burden we’ve been carrying without judgement.

Sometimes we think we’ve found that human with the tender heart, only to discover that our business is later topic for discussion among others in a circle which we are not in. Distraught and disillusioned we may have sought the company of “Me, Myself and I.” Trust issues will do that. And I am so sorry if you’ve been there. Truly I am; because I’ve been there, too.

Can anyone relate? And sometimes well-meaning people who aren’t trying to intentionally spread our business … they’re simply trying to build a ‘praying community’ around us and our situation … have made it their business to invade our privacy … and contributed to compounding the matter.

But the Lord, our Scripture verse says, He sees all that … and even saves our tears in a bottle … has a record of what we’ve gone through … because it matters to Him. Imagine that … every tear is saved. Our Heavenly Father grieves when we grieve. What hurts us, hurts Him. There is not one tear shed that escapes His watchful eye. That’s compassion that’s hard to comprehend. Yet, it’s real.

I’ve learned to pray for discernment about with whom I should choose to share those deep things. And quite honestly, it’s been a hard road of learning. Prayer keeps me focused on the One that treasures all of me – every atom of me. I let Him lead me to the trustworthy ones He has selected for me. And I hope that you will do the same.

Guard your heart more than anything else,
because the source of your life flows from it. Proverbs 4:23 GWT

The Hebrew word for ‘guard’ implies ‘protection at all cost.’ And when I read it in that context, it makes sense to let the Lord have the final say on who else (aside from Him) I should confide in.

My hope here today is not to create distrust for our fellow sisters-in-Christ. It is to put our greatest dependency and trust in the One Who created us all because He ultimately is the One Who heals all that hurt and binds all our wounds. If there’s any doubt in your spirit, allow the Holy Spirit to confirm it.

Let’s be mindful of what He has entrusted to us (the lessons of life) and remember that it’s all meant for us to draw nearer to Him and give Him the glory when it’s all said and done.

I love you to Heaven and Back, Girlfriend ~

LindaRJohnson, TitusTwo Visionary