“But GOD, This Isn’t What I Was Hoping For”

 For the Scripture says, “Whoever believes in Him [whoever adheres to, trusts in, and relies on Him] will not be disappointed [in his expectations].” Romans 10:11 Amplified

Do you recall a time in your childhood when you hoped and prayed with all your might for a ____________________ (you can fill in the blank) and it just wasn’t anywhere to be found beneath the Christmas tree? Oh, the sigh leaving us could be heard for miles — like a ginormous helium balloon being deflated.

Disappointment as an adult is no less painful. Perhaps expected family members could not attend a special gathering. The let-down of that long awaited year-end bonus from the company poked a hole in your hopes of a grand celebration for your family. Friends just not connecting as they once did in years prior. It just didn’t happen.

Our Scripture verse redirects our hope to the eternal. Lifts our head to look up and trust the Lord. He will not disappoint us.

You may be thinking, “Well, I trusted but I still didn’t get _______________.”

My question to you: “Are you trusting Him for His best for you or are you trusting Him for what you want for yourself?” To fully trust Him, is to rely on His decision for your life — even in the midst of circumstances that appear less than desirable.

You mind may be on a mini-vacation of sorts right now. It’s possible that you have some spare time to reflect and pray over what is at the root of your disappointment.

Set your mind and keep focused habitually on the things above [the heavenly things], not on things that are on the earth [which have only temporal value]. Colossians 3:2 Amplified

I’m no stranger to the ‘game board’ walk (as I call it): three steps forward, five steps backward. If you’re accustomed to this baffling journey, I believe there are more of us out here than you think. And so many times I have found myself scratching my head and muttering under my breath, “But GOD, this isn’t what I was hoping for!” Shaking my head and wondering how I am to move from here.

If I am honest with you, I will tell you that sometimes GOD in His Mercy had me park right there so that I would spend extra time with Him. I’ll share a secret with you: if I obey His leading to be still and (know) trust Him (Psalm 46:10) because He is GOD, the next few steps are more secure than had I decided to venture off too soon. I didn’t say that these steps would be easier or immediate. Rather, that gentle pause … those moments in park … they spare me a worse fate because I choose to let Him be in control.

So, take heart, Sweet Friend … all is not lost. You’ve not been sidelined or forgotten by your Heavenly Father. What we count as disappointing is only because our sight-lines are not in alignment with His Perfect Will. Remember: He’s already gone ahead of us and knows what’s on the other side.

 It is the Lord who goes before you; He will be with you. He will not fail you or abandon you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” Deuteronomy 31:8 Amplified

Take this time, right here and now, to quiet your soul and listen to what the Spirit has to say to you. You can never spend too much time in prayer. He invites you to share whatever is on your heart — all of it. Don’t bother trying to make it sound pretty or eloquent. Just use your voice and connect with Him.

I pray that what may feel like a giant sinkhole for you today will be filled with the love of GOD and that you may experience His presence and compassion for your every need.

I love you to Heaven and Back, Girlfriend ~~

LindaRJohnson, TitusTwo Visionary

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